1. |
Dead On The Inside
02:18
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Intro:
Still Here (echoing)
Verse 1:
The pain ate away at me
I felt hollow as can be
Depression growing inside
Killing me in stride
I ask, "what the fuck is happening to me?"
I couldn't take it any more, I wanted the pain to end
Sick mentally as can be
Death for me was likely
I made that decision to grow some pills
Taking them one at a time
Waiting for my heart to stop
Then, something happened
I choked and spit them out
If I hadn't choked, maybe I wouldn't be rapping on this track right now
Chorus:
I felt dead on the inside
I didn't know if I was gonna live or die
It was scary as hell
I almost bid farewell
I'm still here, don't know how
I guess my will is strong as hell
Overcome this shit I did (echoing)
Verse 2:
When the pills didn't work I thought about what to do next
I went in to the kitchen, took out a knife
Was ready to cut away my life
I put the blade at my wrist
Hoping by the end, I wouldn't exist
But then, something happened
I dropped the knife
It fell to the floor, when it did I cried hard
I couldn't do it, I hadn't drawn my death card
Several weeks later I finally decided to get help
I didn't want to feel that way any more
Was sick of the pain I was going through
So here I am, I made the ultimate breakthrough (echoing)
Chorus:
I felt dead on the inside
I didn't know if I was gonna live or die
It was scary as hell
I almost bid farewell
I'm still here, don't know how
I felt dead on the inside
I didn't know if I was gonna live or die
It was scary as hell
I almost bid farewell
I'm still here, I made the ultimate breakthrough
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2. |
On The Rise
01:40
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Verse 1:
Oh yeah, let's get it, to the top here we go
Tip-top, going with the flow
I'm here riding through this life
Not looking for strife
No problems, no drama
Just doing me
Giving myself the power, the key
To open these doors
So I can walk these floors
With a smile on my face
This life I'm starting to embrace
Ready to enjoy the finer things before I spread my angel wings
Rocking out, rapping away
Let's party because I'm on the rise okay?
Hook:
Living life on the rise
Time to recognize
I'm doing what I do
Talking with my crew
We ridin' high 'till the day we die
Oh yeah, let's get it
Verse 2:
Adrenalin' pumpin', here we go
Verse number two, move to this flow
Everywhere I go, not looking at what's below
I'm looking up above
This I love
Keeping that positivity going
Which keeps me growing
This is my life, the way I want it, the way I want to stay
Forget the negatives, remember the positives as I live on the rise
(Hook)
Outro:
Yeah, let's get it
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3. |
Soldiers Without Borders
02:41
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Intro (David Hayter as Big Boss in Metal Gear Solid: Peace Walker):
We will forsake our countries. We will leave our motherlands behind us and become one with this earth. We have no nation, no philosophy, no ideology. We go where were need, fighting not for country, not for government, but for ourselves. We need no reason to fight. We fight because we are needed. We will be the deterrent for those with no other recourse. We are soldiers without borders.
Verse 1:
Every day our soldiers are off fighting pointless wars
No meaning behind it, as they get blown up by the claymores
Attending to government agendas
Conflicts decided by referendas
Fuck that, I say we need to have soldiers without borders
Without orders
Fighting for what they believe in
And not carrying out the governmental sin
They are simply being used
Only to be abused
To die on the battlefield
So many lives lost, I wish for this to be appealed
That's why I say
Hook:
Soldiers without borders
We need to stop the horrors
Men & women dying every day
From the bullets that ricochet
Damn why must it be this way
This is why I convey this idea
Verse 2:
Guns, bullets, grenades, bombs
George Bush got blood on his palms
His war crimes he got away with
As shit went amiss
The U.S. sank in quicksand
As our soldiers were fighting wars
For his agenda, his daddy's cause
All it did was sabotage
I do not wish to see this again
So my message to Barack Obama
Is to not go down that path
We don't want to suffer in the aftermath
These wars aren't equipped with purpose
So that's why I say
(Hook)
Verse 3:
I hope this extends to the masses
Making big splashes
These are my beliefs
That I hope give reliefs
To those listening, support your soldiers
Give them the hope and prayers they need
As they do the government deed
No more control
That's why I say
Outro (David Hayter):
Soldiers without borders (fading out)
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Hook (Kendrick Lamar):
I am a sinner who's probably gonna sin again
Lord forgive me, Lord forgive me things I don't understand
Sometimes I need to be alone
Bitch don't kill my vibe, bitch don't kill my vibe
I can feel your energy from two planets away
I got my drink, I got my music
I would share it but today I'm yelling
Bitch don't kill my vibe, bitch don't kill my vibe
Bitch don't kill my vibe, bitch don't kill my vibe
Verse 1:
I really hate this path I walk on, because nobody’s at my side
Just myself, nobody down to the ride
I guess it’s the story of my life, people coming and going
No one really sticking around, there for the moment flowing
I ask myself if I am the problem, maybe I am
When it comes to people, I always give a damn
Even though I generally hate most
I just wanna be accepted, have some that are close
I live in the city where the heroin keeps being used
Getting these people fucked up daily, their lives diffused
I also can’t stand these fakes that are around
One of the many things I dislike about this town
I know I’m not a saint myself but at least I don’t shoot up
Thinkin’ about this shit makes me wanna pour liquor into my cup
Fuck y’all, you kill my vibe.
Bridge:
And I can feel the changes
I don’t want people around me so they can be famous
Find me in the 602 & put my ass on a stage
That would be amazing
To you that’s a quick check with all disrespect let Kendrick say this
(Hook)
Verse 2:
I’m trying to do what I can to get out of the shit-hole I’m in
It’s like a game I can’t win
Struggling emotionally and mentally, trying to keep this shit whole
No, they can’t have my soul
That’s the one thing I can’t afford to lose
But that’s what some do so they don’t have to pay dues
Cold world that we living in ain’t it?
As hard as shit gets, I can’t quit
I just wish I would get a break
But wishing doesn’t get you anywhere as I wake
I pray to God to take away my hardships
I hang on for dear life, got a tight grip
That’s all I can do really
Until I’m able to live freely
(Bridge & Hook)
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Bridge:
Pour up (drank), head shot (drank)
Sit down (drank), stand up (drank)
Pass out (drank), wake up (drank)
Faded (drank), faded (drank)
Verse 1:
I remember my first taste of alcohol
My sobriety flowing down like Niagara Falls
Acquired that taste for beer
Made my messed up mind clear
A temporary solution to my sorrows
Trouble soon would follow
‘Cuz while it would relax me
It got me close to having shit on my rap sheet
It’s fun for the moment
Though it makes you unfocused
I’d be looking to get fucked up
Alcohol causing my mind to be flooded
Then someone said to me
Hook (Kendrick Lamar):
Nigga why you babysitting only two or three shots
I'mma show you how to turn it up a notch
First you get a swimming pool full of liquor then you dive in it
Pool full of liquor then you dive in it
I wave a few bottles then I watch em all flock
All the girls wanna play Baywatch
I got a swimming pool full of liquor and they dive in it
Pool full of liquor, I'mma dive in it
(Bridge)
Verse 2:
When I’m buzzed my conscious floats around
Drink after drink, I feel it flowin’ down
I can drink a shit ton & still be okay
But sometimes my head spins like a torpedo plane
Thinkin’ I should stop but wanting to keep going
My conscious mind keeps closing
When I drink, I’m a different person
I forget about my horrors ‘cuz the shit hurts
Surprised im not an alcoholic at this current time
When I’m drunk I feel a certain vibe
I should fill my swimming pool full of liquor
Dive in it to take me to world that looked familiar
But I’ll settle for some shots, trying to create a memory
Then, someone said to me
(Hook & Bridge)
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6. |
You
03:12
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Verse 1:
I know I screwed us up; I kick myself over it daily
Ever since then, my life has been grayly
You completed me, made me truly happy
Without you in my world, life is crappy
I miss seeing your face, your smile
Haven’t heard that beautiful voice in awhile
I would give anything to see and hear you again
As I write your name with my pen
We both went through so much pain
However its making us stronger, ascertain
Sometimes I think you’re around me
Maybe its because you are etched into my soul with great degree
These words I speak are true
This is just for you
Chorus x2 (Adele):
I hate to turn up out of the blue, uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me, it isn't over
Verse 2:
You mean everything to me, more than I ever thought
You are amazing in every sense of the word, I just wanna trot
In your direction, no turning back
You were inspiration for my comeback
Stronger now than I was, ready now
Looking at you makes me say wow
I’m striving for the positives, casting off the negatives
So much was in my way, now shedding these inhibitives
Wanting and needing a great life
I am so done with the strife
I’m hoping one day soon we’ll see each other
That will be the day I run to you
These words I speak are true
This is just for you
(Chorus x2)
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7. |
Jesus (ft. Sean Huggan)
02:56
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Verse 1:
Jesus I had a hard time believing in you
But now I do, watching over me, guiding me through
I know you have big plans for me, that I'm here for a reason
My work on planet earth is far from done
Lord give me the strength to keep things going in the right direction
That the world will be ridded of corruption
Protect us from the wicked and the evil
I thank you for my survival
Cleanse my heart, mind, and soul
Guide me towards my goal
Moving onwards in the name of father, son, & holy spirit
Amen
Verse 2 (Sean Huggan):
Yo, this rhyme goes out to the man who died for you and for me
He died on the cross to set us free
His name is Jesus, the son of God
Simply have faith and he'll give you the nod
My life was spiraling out of control
Alcohol gone wild, it was taking it's toll
I lost my touch with reality
I think I even lost touch with me
Then I received a blessing from above
Filled with nothing but love
I was introduced to my soon to be wife
And gradually I was no longer in strife
Chorus (Sean Huggan):
Thank you lord for my life
Thank you lord for my beautiful wife
Thank you lord for my wonderful son
Lord you are number one
Verse 3 (Sean Huggan):
So yeah, what can I say heavenly father but a big thank you
You gave me a wife and a little baby too
When life was in tatters you showed me the way
You saved me lord, what a blessed day
When the clouds are gray, you shined on me
I could never repay you but to love thee
You died on the cross for all of my bad
And you blessed me by helping me become a good dad
So this rhyme's for you my savior, my hero
Save me from the pits of zero
(Chorus)
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Verse 1:
I was caught up in the dark side
The demons I encountered weren’t so kind
I came from such a small place
I’ve been on such a craze
Telling these stories through these lyrics
No need for gimmicks
I just be rappin’ away, sticking to what’s real
And I’ll keep turning the wheel
One day my struggles will fade away
Most likely in the strangest way
Tupac Amaru Shakur is the reason I’m doing this
Marshall Mathers didn’t refuse his gifts
Why should I?
There was a point in time where I thought I should die
But I’m still here, talkin’ to y’all
I’ve experienced life changing things
But ill still be same until the end of time
Chorus (R.L. Huggar)
So take, these broken wings
I need your hands to come and heal me once again
(Until the end of time)
So I can fly away, until the end of time
Until the end of time
Until the end of time
Verse 2:
There is a lot of things I wish I could change
Deep down I remain chained
I’m looking to break free
And I will because you can’t break dreams
Going to part with the Arizona life
Go to a new world, I won’t be defied
I’ll achieve that one thing I’ve wanted
They asked John Lennon what he wanted to be when he grew up
He said happy, that’s exactly what I want
I beat depression. I’m not Dead On the Inside, im On The Rise
Hopefully one day our Soldiers will be Without Borders,
I would then dive into my Swimming Pools full of liquor
Asking these Bitches To Not Kill My Vibe
My faith remains in Jesus and to You, I say I love you
I’ve experienced life changing things
But ill still be same until the end of time
(Chorus)
Ending Chorus (R.L. Huggar):
If an angel comes down
And takes me away
The memories of me
And my songs
Will always stay
Till they can find
(Until The End of Time)
Until the end of time
Till the end of time
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